My Last Selfish Act

Whatever the price of choosing you, I am willing to pay it.

Standing beside you

might be the greatest gift

I ever give myself.

In this lifetime.

This will be my last dance,

and when the curtains fall,

I want nothing left in me.

Let me spend every ounce of devotion

I have been saving

on loving you.

Because outside of you,

I do not see an other.

It is you

or no one.

There will be heartbreak.

There will be tears.

I will be made the villain

for choosing someone

who was never meant

to be one of us.

But I do not care.

I have spent enough of my life

measuring my happiness

against what it might cost everyone else.

Just this once,

let me be selfish.

Let me give you everything

I have always been too careful to give.

my undying loyalty,

the ugly, honest depth

of wanting someone

without apology.

They can judge me

when the music stops.

Until then,

you are my last dance.

And I intend

to make it one

even the heavens

will remember.